Jealous much?

CB and I have been chatting... Not that we shouldn't be but I stopped txting and calling a while ago and now it is CB who must reach out to me! And he is! Good convo- not letting it go on for too long... just long enough to stay light and fun. As well Boo and I have been talking and all is looking good for our date tomorrow. He seems as excited as me! lol- Crazy right! BUT- this morning Kbb decided to ask me when I am going to be his GIRL FRIEND! I had to find a way to dodge that bullet because while I have known him for a few months, I am just now starting this team thing out and I really need to explore things- For myself. This time I am not thinking about a guy and what he wants and when he is ready and I am focused on me and what I need. I think this will help me weed out those who only want a play play thing... If they are willing to wait- they might be worth my time.

Kbb likes to act like I am SO important to him but at the end of the day I know he is looking out for himself. I went out the other night and txt him about some guy who was bothering me... He got really jealous which i didn't expect and he actually said to me... "If you were dancing with another guy I would be pissed".... yuh... Rediculous I think because I am grown and there is no ring on my finger PLUS- when he goes out I am SURE he dances with chicks.... so ya. But either way... I am refusing anything serious right now and just chillin- If he can handle that he has a place on my team.... If not- well,... he will have cut himself.

Like a BOY...

I decided to play this out totally opposite of how I would,... My last chance went to CB.. He plays ball and was the sweetest guy from the moment I met him... we went out every day for 2 weeks, we laughed together 90% of the time and since he is from home town I figured it might be worth a shot- he met my friends and I met his... Fam too... It was fast but we had so little time. I realized that despite the actions, effort, and time.... This guy was much like the rest... he got caught in two lies along the way and that's when I knew... He tweeted his location when he told me he was out of town... He was here for about 36 more hours and lied about it. Childish and uncalled for really, but I digress... CB also made plans with me before that and cancelled because he was on "South Beach" LIES! lol- CB, really now? I know where U were... and we were in the SAME area.... not cool... So extra! lol- But I'm not mad... and CB remains unaware of what I know as well as HOW. My point here is that I am too smart for that. I will always know more than they think I do and unlike most, I have learned that you never name ur sources. Ladies, This is a CARDINAL RULE! Men are built to adapt and if you let them know how they got caught, they will simply switch it up making the NEXT time (and there will be a next time) harder for you to catch!

I decided to play it like a boy. Stop chasing romance, fantasizing about a fairy tale, STOP dwelling on the idea of love... don't get me wrong, I still believe in LOVE and all that it is... I just know it is rare and when you are lucky enough to have the REAL thing, you must cherish it always.

So here is the game plan. I have a "team". There is a roster and each player is to remain unaware of the other. Not in a sneaky way, simply in a non clingy, less emotional, I don't owe you anything type of way. This allows for less competition and lies and more clarity on my part. The first rule is NO SEX! I know what you are thinking.... NO GONNA HAPPEN lol but it will.... I still have my "designated BF" (Mr S) who is much less bf and much more "companion" and this keeps it SAFE. The goal here is to protect myself.

The second rule is no emotional ties... so I cant spend too much one on one time with one person too frequently... I know me best and I don't want to choose favs already! lol So far a few have made the team... CB because I like him, he's fun, and until I lose interest... He's not cut- just on the bench. Then there is Boo. He is really smart, super fine, and we have a lot in common. Dinner was great and totally a blind date- which has never worked out for me before so I am interested. Next is Kbb and he's a sweetie... He says he has made up his mind about me and I'm "IT" but uh,... I'm sure he's just caught up right now...

Let's see... They are all calling me.... and another recruit is trying to get on the team,.... I'm raising the bar... SO- We shall see.