Boy Gets Girl....

Ever heard that story where the good girl thinks she has the perfect boyfriend... She knows that there are a lot of imperfections but she thinks if she just hangs in there long enough it will get better.... so she stays and puts up with him ignoring her and being "too busy" for her.... but there is always the "under dog" who sees how badly the bf treats what he considers a "princess" but had to fall back into the "best friend" position because he knew the girl wouldn't leave him..... Well that's my story... can you believe that? who would have thought? Well, I can't say that I will have the ultimate fairytale like they always get in the movies... but I can say that it feels good to have someone showing me attention for once... When we go out to dinner HE pays... When I call he comes running... I wonder how long this will last....

Right now things are wonderful.... he is making time for me as much as possible, calling to check up on me, lets me know what's going on.... He is letting me into his world and I like it... I have come to realize things are always going to start off perfect... they will always seem wonderful.... but when the rough times come you really see who a person is....

Because Whoa and I have built a friendship prior to anything else... I think we might have a shot.... he has seen my bad days, happy and sad days.... my "leave me alone" days AND my "needy" days..... he has seen a lot and he is still fighting to get me so who knows... one day at a time right? Well today is a good day.....

I actually started to take down the pix of Hammer and I... I'm doing it little by little and very slowly but still- its getting done..... I still love him.... and part of me always will,.... and I think he's a great guy, I just know that if I'm ever going to be happy I have to stop trying to become someone I'm not. I don't like people disappearing because I worry and stress... So trying to make a relationship work with someone who disappears frequently is not a positive move.... If I need a rose every day to be happy- I need a guy who WANTS to give me a rose every day... not a guy who thinks roses are dumb for so many reasons.... Boy, Growing up is crazy... but I'm getting the hang of it....