9 Month Anniversary!!!

And so today marked 9 months.... I can't believe Hammer and I made it this far! I must admit that there have been some moments when I questioned if we would last..... I wasn't sure that I could stand it- But at the end of it all.... I am so happy to have him! He is happy about today too! We talked about the fact that distance is a "right now" thing and not a "forever" thing and that thought is comforting....

If only I was there... Hammer and I really could work! We have so much in common... so many things we agree on.... so many things we both love.... And Our only "issue" IS distance.... I just don't think that's a good enough reason to leave someone..... He said the last 9 months were good for him and that the flew by.... lol.....

I'm so sad.... I really love my friends but I'm starting to see where I need to let some go.... Why should I allow them to taint my image of worth and value in not only myself but the other ppl around me? I shouldn't! There was a time when I had an issue with some girls.... but these days my issues are more with the underhanded trickery of the males I "know". for example... Mr Mayo... lol... he sees these little things... loop holes... and he really thinks that as long as he uses a "loop hole" he is not wrong.... but trying to trick me into spending time with you.... or making me feel bad for NOT falling for your BULL SHIT is NOT by any means being a friend...... Love me enough to let me go! Let me go on with my life and be there as a friend or just go on without me.... But why does it have to be like that? Why must you be so selfish? If you're THAT selfish already.... You are not READY to have a relationship.... this shit is not all about you! geez! Realizing its not all about me kept ur ass around... but how long must I put up with that? I may be confused about a lot of things right now but that is definately NOT one of them... I just wana dedicate "SCREAM" by Michael/ Janet Jackson to these fools! "JUST STOP PRESSURING ME< JUST STOP!"



Despite it all- I LOVE My Boyfriend