Wow... what an update!

Sooo,... Things are moving but they are CRAZY!!! Let's start with Whoa and I... still going and these past few weeks have been a challenge.... ever since I got my puppy Halo I just have not felt so needy.... but it made me think about my life.... and what I deserve and what I am willing to put up with... I call this.. "the BIG evaluation" lol... We got into it after Mz Kay's Bday party and I was ready to QUIT... for real... I just couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore... I think he sensed that because he asked me to go to therapy with him... I was THROWN! I never heard of a guy WANTING that... but then I think he didn't expect me to be willing.. I made the plans though and this week Friday morning at 9 we have our first session! This should be good! Either way this goes, At least I will have some answers finally.... I told him to start thinking about how he feels about everything.... The funny thing is that now he is calling me just to tell me he loves me (which he was doing but not so much of before) and he is planning a trip for us at the end of this month! I have been begging him to go out of town with me and gave up when he stood me up the last time... so it will be nice if he actually mean s it this time.

As for the film... I have been doing so much for the production and finally got into it with one of the guys I work with because he thinks he knows everything.. He is older (like 45) and all he does is TALK about things... I see no action.. but that's not how I work. Less talk and more action. I want to see what you're about- not hear it! Any way the producers called me and apologized on his behalf for how he spoke to me. But I feel good cuz I put his ass in check and walked out! He needs to know I won't put up with it. I'm not here to stroke his ego! Anyway they told me to focus on my character so I'm happy! I have been running and getting in shape... I'm looking good and I have another week until I start my fight scenes so time to buckle down!

And I am going to do extra work on "burn notice" in a few weeks so I'm excited for that!

Halo has been driving me NUTS! I love her to death already but she is only 16 weeks barely and training her right now is hard... I'm working thru it with her though. She is getting better with time... So we shall see. I want to get her shaved tho because I feel bad when I take her out... she is so cute but she gets over heated quick down here.... Soon!

Hammer hit me up! He actually called to talk for a while... and we have ALWAYS talked for long periods... but always on IM or email... never really on the phone... He was never a phone guy but we are really good friends.. Anyway when he did call he just was so happy and wanted to chat and then said how great it was to talk and that next day he said he had a dream that we.... well,.... he said his dream was about how much fun we used to have and how we had done it all again... I was floored.... I don't know what to think about that. But I just wanted to put that out there. Thoughts...

Bad feelings.....

Ok-so here I am again- sitting in the studio and loving every min of it! I guess I can start this off with Mz Brown b-cuz that is the one thing I am the happiest about.... So she came to the house last nmight and we all talked... Things went really well because I found out that she didn't just stop coming around because she had picked sides... turns out she was never really mad at me or Mz Kay in the first place. She said it is just hard for her to spend so much time with J-Mo and then to come hang with us... she was torn and felt that he needed her attention more than us because we are fine and he is really unstable right now.....

C-Pooh'z X before me wanted a baby more than anything... apparently she slept with anything she could find to get one... now she has one and she also now has full blown AIDS and was supposed to pass away on thanksgiving but she is still here.... I can't decide if I should go visit or not- I know I didn't really know her but I just feel like it must be really lonely and hard to know any day now you will die... she has been in there for the last year so I hope the pain ends sooner for her than later.. I know thats not the best thught ever but I mean it only so she won't be in pain. Mz Brown wants me to go with her to see her.... She said she has patches of hair, she's too weak to lift her hand, her lungs are so far gone she can barely speak and she has to pump morphine constantly....

Mama Dukes also JUST called me and told me that she had a dream about her mom.... My grandmother was my favorite person in the world... especially when my dad and I got on a rocky path... but she did some things and it was hard to forgive her- i was the ONLY one in my family who couldn't hold on to the anger.... The last time I saw her she didn't know who I was and at my age it was hard to deal with that.... They want me to go see her this weekend because my mom thinks she might pass soon- she had a dream about her.... and she IS 84 now so I guess she has a point... Why is it so damn hard for me to deal with death and the possibility of?? My other grandmother seems so sad now too and I get the worst feeling in the world about her.... I love her to pieces and if anything ever happened.... I don't think the guilt would be something easy to deal with.... Shr and my great aunt lay the guilt trips on pretty thick everytime we talk so... IDK....

Back!

Ok- so I know it has been a while since I wrote- Been so backed up in my own thoughts I needed time to gather myself before I would be able to write.... but I guess I'm back now.... To sum things up... Whoa and I are stronger now than EVER! We spend sooo much time together and I love it! He loves the way I take care of him and I love that he gives a damn how I feel. He does for me and I do for him... To be very honest I was starting to fall into a pool of doubt because I was so scared we were drifting... my mind was just some place else... but the he went to Texas and I went on vacation and that trip gave me a chance to think about what it is I want and what I am and am NOT willing to do or give up to get it. Well,. nothing is perfect but I want this time together to last.... As it is I have been in the studio ALL day and I'm still here.. we work out together, play games together, run errands, cook, go to movies, all together... and he even met my mom... They like each other and they even talk sometimes! He's letting me into his world more and that's all I really wanted.

On another note... Delanie and Dread are doing well... looking for me to give them a therapy session. Apparently ALL my friends feel like I should be a therapist because while I SUCK with my own choices... I am awesome at advising other ppl and opening their eyes to what else they may not see... or want to.

Meanwhile, Brother bear and his lady are no more.... They ended and All I know is that she needed to be in rehab and what was meant to be a short amount of time turned into a long, drawn out, unfortunate string of events.... I'm so sad for them... just because they are both good ppl. But no matter how much we may want it to work out.... some things just are not meant to be. This is a lesson J-Mo and Mz Kay learned too. she decided it and he was VERY upset. J-Mo keeps showing up to the house... finding every reason he can and then crossed the line when he publicly dragged Mz Kay arund a parking lot trying to profess his undying love for her. I think that really scared her more than anything and after that I am not too sure she would EVER even consider going back. I can't tell J-mo this in so many words... right now the possibility is all he really has,... I am very honest about the truth though. I wouldn't set him up for failure- although- When it was me loving C-pooh (his brother) he kept me around as a personal play toy for him. But I'm not that kind of person.

Mr Mayo doesn't talk to me AT ALL these days... can't say I'm too sad about that. Part of me wants the friendship... But the other part of me knows now that he was never my FRIEND... he just manipulates things and waits until you are weak enough for him to pounce on you like a wild lion.... I'm just tired of the disrespect and lack of concern for my well-being. I love Mr Mayo for who I thought he was... and should he ever become that person- I am here with open arms.... But I doubt it- so I won't hold my breath!

The whole group has dispersed itself and even Mz Brown and AKA won't come around anymore. I know AKA only came around for all the WRONG reasons but Mz Brown was one I thought would never pick sides... I guess I was wrong... or maybe she just chose not to be in it at all... o well.... I miss her but what can I do? Nothing.

Hidden Frustration

Ever feel like you have walked into quick sand? Like fighting it or struggling only makes you sink deeper.... and no matter how quickly you think of ways to escape- your thoughts can't come to you fast enough....? Have you ever closed your eyes thinking if you just squeeze hard enough and then open them again everything that scared you will be gone and everything that was wrong will suddenly be right? Well,... I have... and each time is unlike the last... but the pattern or "chain of events" seems almost identical... One would think I should know better by now right? But to act as if I "Know better" is to act out of my character... I believe in second chances- Always have and sadly, always will. I know, I know... it's not really smart to just write off the bad in people as if you didn't see it because even if you block it out of your mind- that still exists.... I'm so tired though... Too tired to deal....

For Delanie's B-day we went to dinner where I was surrounded.... half by people I call my family and half by people who would call me their enemy... But I just prefer not to call them anything- to try and sum them up would take far more effort than I am willing or able to give them... I actually sat exactly at the point where both side's met (the middle) and ate dinner listening to foolishness (gossip and unkind words meant only for entertainment while picking at people they didn't even know but sat next to) and laughs... I was less than thrilled to be there but Delanie is definitely my homie and I would never desert her on her day because of the company she chooses to keep. I road it out and made sure she had fun, meanwhile, I was drained from the whole event.

Last night I cleaned my room... I just took everything apart and cleaned it from the beginning.... I know me- and something in my mind is not at ease because that's what I do when I'm frustrated or confused- I work it out by cleaning.... I feel the urge to make sense or take control of the things around me because I feel like I have lost control over something else in my world.

Normally I know exactly what it is that is hindering my ability to simply BE.... But right now I feel as though my mind has thrown a cloak over the issue and pushed it off to the side... Perhaps because that part of me is aware of how much I can and can't handle right now but it doesn't make me any less confused... and it certainly doesn't make me any less frustrated with myself.

Whoa watched fireworks with me and came to visit twice on July 4th... I was pleased! We had a great talk about our faith and where we both stand which made me very comfortable.... He was the one who wanted to talk until 4:30 in the morning! lol.... we had movie plans for Sunday after I got home from church but he had to work so we will simply go another time.... Speaking of CHURCH- I am happy to say that I have found a nice one that I want to go to again..... I have been looking for one for some time and never really found one that fit.... I think it's very important that everyone goes in their own time and that they are HAPPY where they choose to worship.... This place is nice and welcoming and Mz Kay and J-Mo invited me to go so it was easier than going alone.

Part of me is hoping that by going to church more regularly I might be able to get a closer look at myself and perhaps I'll find where I'm supposed to be.... I don't think that's a bad reason..... People go to find themselves all the time and if your heart is in the right place, if you are genuine and if you are willing to ask for help and guidance.... I do think you will find what your looking for... At least I hope...

"Wanted" and a ticket?

Sunday I told Whoa about my mom saying how she liked "Wanted" and how she said I should go with him.... he said Tuesday it was a date! lol... So I was excited for what I had to look forward to... Mz Fabulous had asked that we all go to her condo in Aventura so we could film her commercial for her upcoming birthday extravaganza!! So I road with Mz Kay down there and we had a lot of fun with "the ladies" filming our scenes! I had to leave a bit early though because Whoa had asked that I get the latest movie showing time and he was determined to see SOMETHING! lol-

I had J-Mo drop me off there and the ticket girl told me that the movie was PACKED! even at 10:50 at night on a TUESDAY! I was BLOWN and slightly upset but happy I would at least see my boo any min....... He walked up and asked if I had the tickets so he could pay me back- I told him what the ticket lady said and he went, bought two tickets and proceeded to check for seats for us.... he called me while I had just finished getting my chili cheeses fries and walked me in to two FRONT ROW seats! LMAO.... then he left to get nachos and drinks for us both.... I shared my fries and boy was he starving... he was really glad I was finally able to eat some chili and cheese off the top....... lol- during the movie he dozed off a little (my poor baby was so sleepy from working so hard) and he actually pooted! lmao! It was so funny- he just looked at me and said "Now we're broken in" and smiled....

After the movie he took me home where he also spent the night and we stayed up talking and watching TV for a while.... we dozed off and I decided to sleep in a little since we were up so late and we had a great morning talk so I wasn't in a rush..... when we finally parted ways with my kiss I hit the road and got a ticket! stupid ass cop pissed me off! and on top of it I know I wasn't going as fast as he SAID he clocked me at.... but whatever- now I have a 200.00 ticket! I'm trying to be calm..... my birthday is coming up really soon and I planned on using my extra money for other things..... but I'm gonna just chill and not stress if possible and see how things work out....

She's Single Again...

So.... Delanie and Slim made it 3 months ( not a very happy and healthy 3 months) but 3 nonetheless...... until this week,.... he went through her phone, FWD all the text messages to his phone and after studying them called her over to confess and confront her... She was pissed, while she wanted him to do it for weeks, she didn't want him to do it the way he did.... He was mean and clearly trying to make himself feel better...

She isn't sad really but then- who would be.... truth is that he beat her ass, became very needy, demanded to keep tabs on where she was and put her in a tiny box which she just didn't want to fit in.... She is my girl but she is not blameless in all this either- she definitely should not have played with fire! I told her to get out when he layed his hand on her and she didn't listen.... i told her to leave when the baby mama drama became physical, I told her to leave when she realized that everything about him was making her sick or mad..... but we all learn in our own time.....

So now she is "happy", tainted, but "happy" and I fully support her decision to just do her.... I think that she wanted something because everyone around her wanted it for her.... we all just wanted her to be happy but maybe right now her happiness is not going to be found within a relationship,.... maybe she needs to celebrate her first relationship- the most important one- the one with herself.

J-Mo and Mz Kay are doing very well these days.... J-Mo just celebrated his 26th B-day and is very happy that he will be getting married to his "dream girl" in less than 1 year! Mz Kay is still deciding on a lot and working on the save the dates which we will HOPEFULLY have done by the end of this month!

Mr Mayo is going to be returning from his vacation to Peru

As for Whoa and I- we are doing well I think.... Still a struggle to stay out of my own baggage but he is helping me see that maybe, just MAYBE, I'm not doomed to be lonely for the rest of my life! lol.... and maybe all men aren't the same.... Hmmm,... I am still not willing to completely succumb to this DREAM of mine but maybe he'll stick around long enough to make me want to..... I don't NEED the wedding bells right now... but I do still feel a strong need for a serious relationship that I can grow in and with..... And I so want this to be it!

The Gift of Groupies!

So, Tuesday was Whoa's b-day... So there I was on Monday night knowing that he was going to be locked in the studio for 2 days.... It was about 10:00 when I got a call that was unexpected but very appreciated... I so badly wanted to be with him on this day as I never really got to be there with a bf for his day before.... So he was just talking and told me he was on his way to see me- in fact- he would be getting to my house in about 15 min. I was sooo happy! He got there and was totally tipsy.... He told me that they wanted to get him drunk for his b-day... so he had 3 glasses of goose and cran and then came the "gift". He has a rule about no females in the studio because it's hard to focus and get things done... But the producer he was with had some "special" friends over.... when he realized one was getting "friendly" the producer told him that "they know WHO you are and they LIKE you!" that's when he said he realized they were his "gifts"..... he said he was like "whoa whoa whoa! They can't be here" but I assume they didn't take him seriously so to avoid getting in trouble he came up to see me.... lol All I could think- In the midst of his honest moment was "GOOD JOB!" I was so excited that he took the initiative to leave and then that he told me about it....

It was difficult but I didn't look at it like the jealous gf because I don't want him to NOT tell me these things in the future..... I was just thankful that he felt he could tell me.... He planned to only stay for an hour but wound up staying because I was worried about him driving home.... He slept on my couch with me for a while we watched a movie with J-Mo and Delanie.....

The next morning he left and I went to work- I was secure in the moment but was kinda concerned about what they would do the night of his b-day...... Fortunately for me- He wound up asking me to come to the studio- It was just he and I there.... He let me hear a lot of his new stuff and OMG I loved it! We wrote together for a while and then we took turns driving home... lol- He stayed over that night and...... This was a night to remember! ;) He def "put me to bed"...

I took yesterday off cuz I was officially worn OUT! lol..... And then last night.... He wanted to come stay with me again...... he called at 1 and said "baby, did I wake you?" I was like "its OK, whats up? u OK?" he said "I was just thinking that I really wanna come by, do you mind?"I said "not at all, you know you're always welcome here.... if you want to come just let me know"and he said "OK babe, I'll know in 30 min so I'm gonna call you OK?"then he called back.... and he was like half sleeping.... he was like "Baby, I don't think I can make it.... I'm so tired,.." I asked where he was and he said close to his house.... the studio is a lot closer to his place so I said "if you can't stay awake and drive then you should sleep there" he said "I really need to sleep" so I said "OK sweetheart, bunches and bunches of kisses..... sleep well" and he said "muah muah muah... ok.... love you.... goodnight"

Mz Kay said today that he is the first guy who is actually LISTENING to what I need and want and trying to make that happen.... Which is so nice because I am the type of person who naturally does that for someone else too! These are the days I wanted.... simple- care free- drama free- and lovely...... I sure am in a state of bliss.... although I'm still gaurded..... I really hope he's not gonna hurt me like all the others have.... I really HOPE!

Memorial Day Weekend!

OK- so here's he story- Friday night we went to Barchetta's and totally brought the house down! My girls and I were the HOTTEST thing in the place and EVERYone (including my fav DJ and News Anchor's) made sure we had the ROYAL treatment! Mz Fabulous totally got passes for the pretty rick event and the damn thing was JOKE! So- Mz Lee's man is part of the group and dropped his phone! Mz Kay innocently stumbled on to it and couldn't wait to show me! I was so torn.... but we decided that despite how we feel about her,.... we should do the right thing and return it because that's what we would want..... So Mz Kay went up to him and said she wanted to return it, he asked where she found it... she told him and then he asked for her number..... she told him she was off the market and he said he was too but that he STILL wanted the number.... she was disgusted and quickly left but after we thought about how she should have told him that because she knows his girl,... that wouldn't be right.... LMAO! Turns out she is getting treated the way she treats others.... it's not funny... actually its sad.... but somehow- it's feeling like justice.

Saturday night we celebrated MA's birthday which later turned into a disaster.... lets just say.... J-Mo came out in full effect!

Sunday we went to a beach spa with Activator (our new friend from Friday night) and it was soooo much fun.... at the end of the day everyone was mad at Mz Kay and I for not going to the beach cook out but hey- I'm too pissed with the whole crew to even care right now... I spoke to Brother bear and he's OK with me so that's all I care about....

Mr Mayo is totally up my butt and I'm almost ready to bust out and kick some reality into him..... I told him flat out that we couldn't be together and he didn't get it.... had the NERVE (knowing I'm with Whoa) to ask me to go away with him for a weekend for my birthday... I told him that we are JUST friends and nothing more and that if I could create a visual I can see myself going down a path and I just don't see him and I together on it- EVER..... yet still he thinks I'm playing.... God didn't give me THAT much patients..... I have a HUGE heart- but damn! I can't take much more of this crap.....

Last night Whoa came to visit me (SURPRISE!!!!!) everyone was there and Mr. Mayo was clearly MAD but knew he couldn't say SHIT to me.... But Whoa jumped out his car- threw on his shoes.... ran up to me while i was jumping up and down cus I was happy to see him , picked me up and ran around the parking lot screaming "my baby misssssees meeee!" lol.... it was a great moment! we listened to his next single and I fell in love with it already! This one is a hit! and the CD is on point... I'm sooo proud of him! he spent the night and we both went to work late... lol... just really loved talking and spending time.... we are supposed to go to the movies this week and have lunch on a diff day this week too.... I hope that happens! AND..... last night I told him that I love him..... but he was sleeping.... so I don't know if he heard me... lol... this morning he said it when he was leaving and kissing me goodbye..... ;)

Day 158- Time Will Tell

So Whoa just went to L.A. yesterday. He is working really hard and I must say- I'm proud of him!.... he's really buckled down and focused on what he needs to do.... Last night he said when he gets home he's coming straight to me.... not even going home to shower! lol....I told him that was a good idea.... then he can take his shower with ME! I'm so excited for him to come home to me it's crazy.... he's counting the weeks and days.... lol... I did some counting of my own.... today is day 158 since we met! Can you believe that? Almost half of a year!! its been 62 days since he confessed how he felt about me.... 44 days since our first kiss and 37 days since we made love for the first time! Interesting!

C-Pooh and I definitely did a good job on the engagement party! Turns out everyone had a really good time and everything turned out perfectly! I think C-Pooh wants for us to be friends again... I mean we have fun and it's always been easy between us.... I would never allow us to get close again- out of respect for Whoa or anyone else I have in my life....

Mr Mayo has made a point of getting touchy feely with me again and I am trying very hard to control my urge to tell him about himself.... Last night he sure was at it again... Mz Kay definitely fires back at him now with his slick remarks but I don't think he gets it.... his behavior is not welcomed or appreciated... If we could just get him to stop acting a FOOL we'd all be good! It's sad because we don't want Mr Mayo to leave the crew- but we want his Alcohol issues and constant urge to be an ass to calm down.... One day perhaps.... but not soon enough!

I feel so lucky to have Whoa right now.... I have never had anyone make me feel like I was so significant.. and honestly, I don't ever want to go back!! I just hope he realizes what he has with me right now and doesn't want to lose it... I hope he appreciates me for real and this is not just a show.... I'd imagine it would be hard to fool ALL my friends like this... but you never know these days.... He has shown himself to be honest, trustworthy, considerate of me and my feelings, and seems to have genuine interest in me (even from what my friends say) So time will have to tell the rest!

Waxing- WTF???

Ok so me and Mz Kay wanna get waxed- BRAZILLIAN! Our other friends have done this many times and feel it's the only way to live life! lol.... far be it for me to say otherwise when I have yet to experience what stories have led me to believe is one of the most PAINFUL procedures women are willing to torment ourselves with! But Mz Kay wants to do it before her wedding and I'm all in for the festivities! I think I just don't wanna do it alone- I'm gonna need someone to talk me into it... and then to hold me down so I don't run away crying with wax stuck to my crotch! LMAO!

Whoa is still in NY but only for a couple more days so.... he already said when he comes back he's ALL MINE! I think I'm totally gonna get him trashed and take advantage of him! I actually think it might be REALLY fun if we BOTH are totally trashed! LOL- I CAN'T WAIT! I miss him so much- but I'm beyond willing to wait a few days for his kiss! He broke his phone though.... poor baby! I think he needs a little TLC and a heavy dose of ME!

Delanie thought I was mad at her since I have been keeping to myself a bit more but I think I just needed a break from ppl.... I kinda needed to get myself together from all the school, work, and love life pressure.... I was on a short thread and didn't wanna go off on anyone else. We're kool tho- she's so funny..... she sounded all sad when I called yet excited (kinda how I imagine I must have sounded to Hammer) LMAO!

My professor totally gave me a 0 and dropped my grade from a 95 to a 75 because he SAYS I didn't post my paper on time... LIES! so ya.... I will be fighting that one if he doesn't come correct real soon!

So I'm about to be off...... gotta go shopping with C-pooh for the party..... interesting huh? lol.... a few months ago I never would have expected this to be ok..... but I guess that's the beauty of life.... all the unexpected surprises keep you from getting too bored. lol

-Blank

Hammer spoke again last night.... I wrote him and said... "Hey, I hope all is well with you" and closed out the convo- I never expected a reply because he was never really good at those.... Well,... he replied and was telling me about how he is and his coaches and all that..... I kinda just was glad to hear he was alright and was gonna leave it at that- he actually asked how I was doing..... that kinda threw me since I figured he wouldn't care..... I was curious and asked.... "have you thought about me at all?" and he said "Come on, you know I have" Funny- I want to see him again.... like I want to be in his life to some extent..... but I think I have accepted that as the BEST we can ever hope for.....

Whoa had an unexpected emergency this weekend and had to cancel our "romantic" plans..... I am trying to see this as realistically as I can- after 6 months I think I am falling for Whoa and I'm scared to get hurt..... I let my gaurd down with him and then pull back cuz I'm so scared.... Oh well, I guess I'll figure it out between now and the next 2 weeks.....

No bad news to speak of..... Me and my girls Mz Kay and Mz Fabulous had a girls weekend..... We talked about EVERYTHING and yesterday we went to the beach.... We had soooo much fun it's crazy! We totally MUST do it again!

Dinner Party

Last night Delanie, Slim, Kid Sister, GiGi, and Whoa came over.... AFTER Smart Guy and KY left... lol... I made dinner (which everyone loved) Mz Kay had some too and she said it was good so I'm going with that! lol.. Whoa was HAPPY AS HELL and wanted seconds and thirds... lol...How cute! We had (for my first time in a long time) "couple" time.... where we all chilled in the living room and talked while Delanie was hugged up on Slim and Whoa was hugged up on me.... I was so happy..... = )

Whoa decided to stay over since he now has a TOOTHBRUSH at my place and he had to get his hair done first thing this morning up here so it made sense.... He wanted to stay up ALL night talking.... We played "TOTAL HONESTY" lol.... and boy was that "HOT" seat HOTTTT!!! lol He asked how I felt about him, Told me his intentions, and shared some intimate details without me having to push for it.... He couldn't stop touching me... lol... not in a disrespectful way but hugging me, playing with my hair, kissing my shoulders and back and he gave me a back rub till I fell asleep!! All this while TALKING! about things that MATTER! he actually cut off the TV in the middle of a movie to TALK! I was in shock... I never get that much attention unless I'm the one begging for it... And here he is just willing to give it to me....

He asked me to go pick out furniture for his condo with him.... Apparently its kinda bare since he's not there much lately..... but he wants my "touch" so I'm more than willing to help. He gave me complete power last night... There is one female friend he has who likes him.... he cut everyone else off but he likes their friendship.... he said he would never disrespect me and she knows about me cuz he always brings me up..... BUT if I were to become uncomfortable with it he is willing to cut her off too... I think it's good that he is so honest and open about it... I don't wana tell him to stop being her friend-they barely even talk now and... friends are good! I LOVE mine and some of them like me too so how fair would that be? But at least he is catering to how I feel instead of telling me I need to just deal cuz they are friends.... This is helping me to trust him!

We got up this morning and it was so nice.... Waking up next to someone who looks at you like even with the messy hair, eye bugers, and pillow marks on your face- YOU ARE GORGEOUS! He waited for me to finish my shower and chilled for a min then he left and I got dressed for work...... Morning kisses... Love 'em!