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Hammer spoke again last night.... I wrote him and said... "Hey, I hope all is well with you" and closed out the convo- I never expected a reply because he was never really good at those.... Well,... he replied and was telling me about how he is and his coaches and all that..... I kinda just was glad to hear he was alright and was gonna leave it at that- he actually asked how I was doing..... that kinda threw me since I figured he wouldn't care..... I was curious and asked.... "have you thought about me at all?" and he said "Come on, you know I have" Funny- I want to see him again.... like I want to be in his life to some extent..... but I think I have accepted that as the BEST we can ever hope for.....

Whoa had an unexpected emergency this weekend and had to cancel our "romantic" plans..... I am trying to see this as realistically as I can- after 6 months I think I am falling for Whoa and I'm scared to get hurt..... I let my gaurd down with him and then pull back cuz I'm so scared.... Oh well, I guess I'll figure it out between now and the next 2 weeks.....

No bad news to speak of..... Me and my girls Mz Kay and Mz Fabulous had a girls weekend..... We talked about EVERYTHING and yesterday we went to the beach.... We had soooo much fun it's crazy! We totally MUST do it again!