April Fools.....

So I had this BRILLIANT plan..... I could use April first as a way to get out what I wanted to say..... So I sent Whoa a text telling him I needed to ask him something URGENT and he called (AS PLANNED) and we talked for a while.... I let him off the phone and told him to call me back when he received the email.... then I sent an email that had a picture of my drawing which said...

"Will you ask me to be your girlfriend, please check one: Yes or No"

(We always joke about how we are like a couple of high school kids in this relationship the way we are so smitten with each other and goo goo eyes and all so I took it WAAAYYY back in the day to be cute).....And you know he called me and I MISSED IT! Since then I have not been able to get a hold of him by phone.... ITS KILLING ME!!!!! did I just play myself for a FOOL???? OMG! I'm nervous as all hell...What was I thinking?

I know what I thought- I thought.... If he says no I could pretend it was all a joke to save face, I thought about how much I would like April 1st to be an anniversary.... I thought he would get happy and immediately say YES! I really didn't see myself sitting here thinking this hard about it or being so worried about what I may have JUST done. lol.... :( This is really sad... *sigh*