House Party!!

I didn't want to write for a little while... But so much has been happening.... It's all so messy now.... I went to Mr. Mayo's party where ALL my friends were drinking, dancing, playing games and just talking..... I brought Whoa with me.... It took a lot because I have NEVER introduced them to anyone I was seeing... They heard about those few guys of my past and a few have seen them but never in a group setting with conversation.... just a passing by type thing.... I took him around and introduced him to everyone..... People were every where!!! The house, the back yard, the rooms..... but it was nice because we all knew each other and we all had dates and with people we really wanted to be with- this was a ground breaking night!!! I used his "real name" so no one would ask questions,.... that's who he is to me.... REAL.... not some act.... Well Mr. Mayo decided to get totally trashed and have emotional outbursts.... Whoa sat with me all night and we talked and laughed and played spades with some other friends it was a really good experience for me because I have never had that before... no guy have dated outside of C-Pooh was willing to be around people they didn't know and he was clearly affectionate with his hand on my leg and sitting close to me...

Well Mr Mayo is clearly still holding on to his feelings for me and was outraged that I brought Whoa with me..... let's think- Mr Mayo and I have been friends for almost 6 years..... I have always told him that we would never be more than friends but he has always told me about his undying devotion to me (despite the fact that he was ENGAGED and I was in love with his BEST FRIEND)... Anyway.... he wound up being locked in his room and held down by J-Mo and Brother Bear.... He punch a hole in his wall and was screaming about him not being able to see me with ANOTHER guy- as if the man really thinks we were together or something.... Brother bear came out and asked me to take Whoa and leave- which I did- Though I was VERY embarrassed... Whoa said he wasn't mad but that it's not a healthy situation for me to be in with someone who is deemed CLEARLY obsessed by all my other friends....

I took him to my house where he spent the night and we talked and he held me..... he knew I was really upset so he made it his point to let me know he wasn't going anywhere.... he rubbed my back till I fell asleep and the first thing he said when he opened his eyes the next morning were.... "Are you OK?"... Gosh, I'm so happy when I'm with him.... even in times that are stressful.... he makes me feel like it'll be OK.

I asked him what he thought I should do about Mr. Mayo.... He feels like the only thing I CAN do is to put space between us... not to talk to him or hang out much.... I found out after we left that Mr. Mayo was rude to Whoa that night at his house.... and that came from him AND Mz Fabulous so I'm not really feeling our friendship right now.... Whoa and Mr. Mayo have been around each other before... Mr Mayo even came to the studio with me once to see Whoa when we were just friends.... I thought about it and Whoa is too important to me to let some idiot's DREAM get in my way.... So, I have to put him first and that means respecting his opinions... I'm cutting Mr. Mayo off at the knees.