I got my Mo-Jo back!

So I needed some time away to adjust to everything.... sadly my great plan for unemployment took a nasty turn for the worst! The company decided to hold my severance pay and I STILL have not collected that! Because they held everything.. They held my Financial aid AND prevented me from getting unemployment! I am going on 3 weeks with NO pay and I am feeling the squeeze! I asked Hammer for the money I loaned him in December... only 260.00 but that is still needed! And trust me... asking him for that was no easy task! I damn near was in tears doing it! But hopefully he was not lying when he said he would have it for me this week.... How will I ask for it again???

Then Whoa has been out of town for a week and a half! I am so lonely! But he sends me messages EVERY DAY about how much he misses me... On top of THAT, he has called me at least 4 nights early in the morning (3-4 a.m.) Just to talk and fall asleep with me:) ya, I feel so Blessed to be with him right now! He gets back in about a week so I'm happy about that n I really can't wait!!!

I had to get my mo-jo back! I have been down and out and caught up feeling bad for myself AND confused AND a bit scared since I am not in a comfortable situation... but I got up and went on a casting call the other day... I made some crazy connects and turns out I am supposed to do an Ed Hardy show as well as one for Marley and that's this month! Doors are opening and I am going to run in! I felt good with all the great feedback I have been getting and I have got to make something happen- soon!

Church has been more than awesome for me.. I go and I feel happy and like someone DOES understand me and what I'm going thru...i suppose that's the whole point right lol... well it feels good!